Life has given me a lemons lately but I am determined to make lemonade. I found out in December that mom had cancer and she passed away in January this year. It was all so sudden and it still feels like a blur between that and this novel corona virus, I don’t like the first part of it’s name, in my opinion it is nothing but novel.
I did a bunch of research on what kind of nutrition can help reduce the chance of getting cancer and so here I am mostly vegetarian. It took something of this magnitude to get me there, so you do you. Technically, I call it pescetarian-vegetarian to be precise because I love sushi. I do give myself a little bit of leeway in a social context and about once a month I serve other meat in my home so that my family can have some of their old favorites and not feel deprived. Sometimes I will have a few bites or I will just eat the veg part of that meal. For example in a curry, I will add veggies and bypass the chicken.
That being said, my blog has changed and so have I. There have been deep things that God has done in my heart while I was losing my mom and to this day I am still working through all of it. Hind sight is a gift in that I treasure the time we had together and the fact that we were able to have a good memorial service for her without all this social distancing. My brother was able to visit from London with his family and we got to say our goodbyes in peace and without the waves the whole world is facing right now. I used to cook with my mom a lot and it took me some time to get back in the kitchen without feeling a pang of grief hitting me. You can see her hands in my blackberry and mango salad recipe. She was a lovely shoot assistant. I miss her daily.
I am thankful for all the love and support from friends and family. I did not walk this hard road alone, no one should. When I have the strength I will post a practical on how to help people walking loss. I am eternally grateful for those who stood by me and my mom. Thank you, you know who you are. Here’s to basic living. Here’s to time with our loved ones while we quarantine and always. Here’s to new recipes coming your way.